GOWANUS Autumn 2001 |
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SUNSET IN THE HILLS By Rumjhum Biswas
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old woman knelt before the medley of images in the little prayer room.
Some were made of brass, some of clay. There was even a papier-mâché
lingum. Her gray wisps of hair were still wet. How she managed to bathe
at the unearthly hour of 3.30 a.m. was a feat her daughters and later her
daughters-in-law had given up marveling at. The mist outside was heavy.
Some of it crept inside the house like long tendrils of ether. She finished
her prayers quickly with a feeling of guilt. All these years, even when
her house had been full - with her children, her husband's myriad needy
relatives and the servants - and the parting in her hair was proudly branded
with vermillion, she had never ever cut short her twice-daily ritual in
her little prayer room. She got up, holding her knee and wincing at the
pain in her joint. Her grandson was coming all the way to Shillong from
Calcutta just to see her, with his wife and her little great- grandson.
She hurried to the vegetarian kitchen,
one of two kitchens in
Every time she thought of those Hill people she sighed -- an old, tired sigh that seemed to escape from deep inside her. It wasn’t like this in the old days. Back then there was no hatred between the Hill people and her own. The Hill people's customs were shockingly matriarchal and liberal, but they hadn't resented the bookish Bengalis and their babu ways. They didn't begrudge them their government posts nor the slopes where their homes sprang up like so many red-capped mushrooms. Even Kabi Guru Rabindranath Thakur had drawn inspiration for his poetry here! The climate was colder then. Peaches, apricots, plums and pears spread their fragrant blossoms far and hung their fruit low. There was no smoke then either, save for the wood-fed cooking fires curling up from chimneys. But all that had changed. Just like her house. Once bustling with people and merry with the laughter of children, her home now bore a tired, battered look. The old woman smiled sadly to herself as she cut vegetables, resting her right knee against the bonthi’s wooden board while her hands deftly worked against its sharp metal blade. As her mind went back to the past, the voices and laughter of the people she had known and loved wafted in from all corners of the house -- friends, relatives with children of their own. Now they were all either dead or had moved away. Gone from this picturesque little hill town to the cities, scattered all over India. Gone for the promise of a better life, and gone because politics, distrust and hatred had replaced the easy camaraderie between two peoples that her generation had known. Large cauldrons of shining copper and brass were used for cooking then. She remembered the two mild-mannered Nepali boys who used to lift the heavy vessels, serve the food and keep her kitchen clean. A friend once remarked that having a meal at her house was like eating at a wedding; there were so many dishes and so many people to share them with! Her sons had often encouraged her to come live with them in Calcutta, Guwahati, even Delhi. But she always refused. At first she gave her unmarried daughter as the excuse, but afterwards she stopped bothering with excuses at all. “It's no use,” she told them. “I can't leave this place. This is my home. This is the house that your father built for us. This town is as much my home as it is the Hill people's. They can't take it away from me. And I don't think they will. We have lived side by side for so long.... No, let me be. This is where I belong.” She started kneading into balls the boiled and mashed green bananas. Her grandson, granddaughter-in-law and little great- grandson (oh, thank you, Lord, for letting me live long enough!) would be here with her today. The image of her grandson as a baby rose up before her: chubby, sloe-eyed, and always smiling. His little one was sure to look like him. She had only seen her granddaughter- in-law once, at the wedding. A pretty girl, but shorthaired. City bred. Would she like this old place and its old people? “How time flies,” she thought. The sun was high up in the sky. The mist had vanished. Plump clouds were gathering for another burst of feathery rain. She had finished making the koftas, and the payesh was cooling on the table. They would be here any minute. It was just a three-hour drive from Guwahati. The sound of a car crunching to a halt outside her house interrupted her thoughts. She hurried out. There they were! The little one all rosy and dimpled (just as she had pictured him!) looking around in round- eyed wonder. His mother, uncomfortable in a sari, was settling her face into the right expression for the occasion. Her grandson, getting on the plump side now--his wife must be a good cook, she thought approvingly--was running down the cobbled path and up the white stairs, past the creeping Lipstick Vines and Black-Eyed Susans, to catch her up in his arms. “Dida! Dida!” he cried, twirling her round and round. “Put me down, you naughty boy,” she said, laughing. Her grandson's wife was catching the mood too. “I've made your favorite koftas," said the old woman, taking the child into her arms. But he immediately started to bawl. “He's a little tired and dazed," his mother apologized. "Everything's so new to him.” They went inside the house. The boy's mother busied herself with the child, coaxing him to suck at his water bottle, adjusting his clothes. But the old woman's grandson was gazing around the house with pleasure, his eyes glowing with memories--memories she shared with him. “Dida, it looks the same. Only quieter and sort of empty.” “They've all left for the cities,” the old woman replied. But her grandson was too occupied with the past to catch the sorrow in her voice. He was running about the house now, recalling the years gone by, excitedly pointing out familiar objects to his wife. Each piece of furniture and knickknack had its own story. For the old woman the memories were rushing in now. She sank down into a chair and let them wash over her, greeting them like old friends. Her house was full of people again, just like in the old days. Laughing, squabbling, teasing, complaining. “Dida, these koftas are the best in the world!” Her grandson still talked with his mouth full, she noted fondly. “Leave some for me, you hog!” from his wife who was feeling quite at home now. “Mumm, mumm,” murmured the child possessively clutching his empty milk bottle. He didn’t mind sitting on his great-grandmother’s lap. He had decided it was an experienced lap, though a bit bony. The old woman watched them finish the meal. She watched the young wife and her daughter clear away the table. “Now you too must eat, Dida.” Her granddaughter-in-law’s voice was like a soft caress. The baby had fallen asleep in her
arms. She felt she could hold him all day. But, concerned that their Dida
hadn't eaten, the boy's mother took him and laid him down on the old woman's
cot. Then they all sat around her in her vegetarian kitchen, chattering
away while she herself ate. Her knees bunched under her chin, her thin,
almost translucent hand mixing the rice and dal on the bell-metal
plate on the floor, she ate with great relish. Her happiness flavored the
simple meal with the rich aromas and spices of those long-gone days.
The sun was beginning to dip low. The valley was awash in red, gold and mauve. Gray smoke wafted lazily above the pine trees. The birds had begun to descend noisily on their nests. “Dida?” Softly, afraid to intrude on her thoughts, her grandson touched her hair. “Dida, we have to go now.” She looked up at him, his face surrounded
by the first shadows of the evening. She felt her house was beginning to
grow empty again. She wanted to say, "Stay awhile. Just for a few days."
But the words remained in her heart unspoken. It had been very hard for
her when they had first left. But she had learned to live with their absence.
They still loved her. This she knew. But they also had their own lives
to live. And the cities were where prosperity and security waited.
The old woman stood waiting at the gate while the car strained up the steep narrow path leading to the main road. She waved and smiled her wrinkled smile, squinting in the gloaming to still see their faces. Her granddaughter-in-law was quietly wiping her own eyes. Her grandson's face was set in that men-don’t-cry grimace she remembered so well. The car jerked forward. The sun slipped out of the sky, pulling down the light with it. And then she couldn't see them anymore. (Rumjhum Biswas gave up full-time
advertising work "to follow my husband wherever his job takes him, along
with my two children. Currently living in Singapore as a stay-at-home mom
and aspiring writer, have finished a novella and a book-length work of
fiction. Also write poetry–-since childhood--and short stories. If I don’t
write I’ll burst and die.")
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